It all comes at once. I’m bombarded by social media everywhere; tweets, facebook status updates, tumblr posts. ”Obama is making an announcement” very quickly becomes “they have Bin Laden’s body”. I’m not reacting the way I should be, I think….
The self-pity party continues
I guess he doesn’t like me anymore. I think I’m okay with that. It’s just that…for a while, he was my closest friend, somebody I could talk to practically about anything and not feel like a total moron. I guess I was overplaying the significance of the friendship. I am kind of happy that I got to say goodbye, in my weird little way. I almost never get to do that with other online friends.
I need something to eat, maybe that’ll make feel better.
The Goodbye
And there were some tiffs and miffs, and some highschool-level friendship inner drama bullshit read between the lines and silence that went on between me, my friend(s?!), coupled with DEEP EMOTIONS, years and years of being an emotionally stunted human being.
I then spent a good part of an hour furiosly scribbling in an old journal, pouring all my frustrations until my right hand cramped up, switched to going furiously at tumblr, because my usual places of venting are part the drama bullshit. All the while feeling like I wanted to cry but no tears will come out because I apparently am incapable of even that
Let me see if I can find an appropriate gif.
Thank you, gif. That’s a little cathartic but not much. :C
how do I replies?
I wrote that because… uhh, I couldn’t think of anything more descriptive than ASDHFDSLDFKLHJ. :D
Unless you mean the whole thing. To which I can say, I have NO IDEA.
You guys are incredibly silly!
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Sometimes I really feel like there’s no place for me in this world. I also have no idea how tumblr works.
I have a lot of trouble with tumblr sometimes, too, haha.
I think there are plenty of places for you! I don’t know what I should do in my future, and I can’t say I know what anyone else should be doing, but everyone’s got something they can do. :D
I was trying to get a read more thing under a far longer but I went “bawww screw this >:C”
Thanks, bromaldo. I guess I was feeling pretty down with stuff that’s happening in my life and other online shenanigans. It’s feeling pretty lonely down here. :CC
Why would anyone write Robot Jones/Gigyas fanfic?!
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Sometimes I really feel like there’s no place for me in this world. I also have no idea how tumblr works.
I want to live in a world where little girls are not pinkified, but where little girls who like pink are not punished for it, either. We can certainly talk about the social pressures surrounding gender roles, and the concerns that people have when they see girls and young women who appear to be forced into performances of femininity by the society around them, but let’s stop acting like they have no agency and free will. Let’s stop acting like women who choose to be feminine are somehow colluders, betraying the movement, bamboozled into thinking that they want to be feminine. Let’s stop denying women their own autonomy by telling them that their expressions of femininity are bad and wrong.
Antifemininity is misogynist. What you are saying when you engage in this type of rhetoric is that you think things traditionally associated with women are wrong. Which is misogynist. By telling feminine women that they don’t belong in the feminist movement, you are reinforcing the idea that to be feminine and a woman is wrong, that women who want to be taken seriously need to be more masculine, because most people view gender presentation in binary ways. This rewards the ‘one of the boys’ type rhetoric I encounter all over the place from self-avowed feminists who seem to think that bashing on women is a good way to prove how serious they are when it comes to caring about women and bringing men into the feminist movement.
